One Desire - Kari Jobe

Generous Living

   I love being generous. There are some days when I wish I had all the money in the world so I could give to every good thing. But alas, I don't, and I have often struggled with that disappointment. I am not, by any means, disappointment in the path God has taken our family, just the feeling of being limited in my ability to bless others financially more than I do.

Just being honest here :)

 I was sitting on my bed the other day, pondering my current situation and desire, and bringing it before the Lord in prayer, when suddenly I felt His presence.
I have been asking Him lately what more I can do to bring Him glory in my daily life, and now I knew He wanted to speak to me. He was like a still, small voice deep inside me.
At first I felt conviction. He asked how He could trust me with the big things, when I still struggle with the little things?
I knew there were probably some better decisions I could have been making with the money He has already given to me, and right then and there I decided to reevaluate my spending decisions and see if I could be using HIS money more wisely. But there were more little things other than my finances. "What do you enjoy most and how can you use it to be a blessing to others?".... Oh Lord, I don't really know how to do much. The only hobby I have and love is baking and -.......BAKING!

 "Use this to be a blessing to others." ...Yes, Lord, I will.

I can't really explain to you how much that moment meant to me. I no longer feel discouraged about my finances, because I believe God will lead and guide me in that situation! And I know baking doesn't sound very spiritual, but it is so exciting for me to realize that God truly cares about me and He enjoys seeing the gifts He has put into me be used to glorify Him. That moment has continued to play in my mind these last few day as I continue to seek His will for my life. Right now, it seems like I'm to be learning how to live generously. To generously and freely give of myself, whether that be watching someone else's children or baking a loaf of banana bread (with chocolate chips! There is no other kind ;)

I am also feeling more aware of how many simple things can mean a lot to someone. Along with the baking, I think of other little ways I can show love to the people I know, such as an unexpected card in the mail, a text message or a phone call. These things are available to me daily and I do take advantage of them sometimes, but, how many other times have I shrunken away from them because, for example, I don't really like to talk on the phone? I am realizing that I have, at times, been walking in a form of selfishness. I now want do these things, not just because they are good to do, but because my heart is the Lord's and I love Him. The more I seek Him, the more of His heart he shows to me. That fact is so fascinating to me.

The more I seek Him, the more I find Him.

What a humbling thing. I am thankful.

Love for free

 

   This past week had to be one of the busiest weeks I have had in a very long time. It was also one of the most fun!  I was asked to help out at a five day kids camp which prepared  the kids for a program they put on Friday evening. The week didn't come without its challenges, but those challenges were so miniscule compared to the joy those kids brought to my heart. It still amazes me of how quickly you can give a part of your heart away, in a good way. My dad has always encouraged us to "give love for free". No strings attached, expecting nothing in return. I felt like I had that opportunity last week.

I find it very interesting that the kids who caused the most challenges ended up being my "favorite" kids. They're the ones I'll remember the most because I needed to spend most of my energy trying to steer them onto the path of obedience ;)  They just wanted someone's attention and didn't really know how to get it without causing some kind of ruckus. I found it to be the same situation with some of the kids I got to know in Thailand. I am continually amazed at how God ties in experiences I had there to help me here back home. Thankfulness is not a big enough word for what I feel!

   I don't know if my life really made any impact on the kids at camp at all, but if it did, I pray that their memory of me would be that of love, kindness and patience, and they would always attach those characteristics to Jesus. I pray He uses their memories of kids camp to remind them of Him and draw them closer and closer to Him as they grow older.
 In my young age, I am learning that giving love for free is worth it, even if it doesn't seem like it in the moment. If anything, it is teaching me to be more humble and unselfish....So maybe I received something after all... :)

FREEDOM’S STANDARD.

God bless our star-gemmed banner;
Shake its folds out to the breeze;
From church, from fort, from housetop,
Over the city, on the seas;

The die is cast, the storm at last
Has broken in its might;
Unfurl the starry banner,
And may God defend the right.

Then bless our banner, God of hosts!
Watch o’er each starry fold;
Tis Freedom’s standard, tried and proved
On many a field of old;

And Then, who long has blessed us,
Now bless us yet again,
And crown our cause with victory,
And keep our flag from stain.

Bayard Advocate (Bayard, Iowa),  1916

Down Syndrome

I love this picture :)

Peace

Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. - Jesus (John 14:27)

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I have said these things to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world. - Jesus (John 16:33)

I just felt like someone may need to read those words today :) 

Reviled, we bless

We are never likely to be under the curse that comes when all men speak well of us. In this case it is all so unexpected that we must keep low before our God and not wonder 'Why?' Faith never wonders why.   Just now the word I am saying over and over to myself is 'Being reviled, we bless'. That whole passage in 1 Corinthians 4 is speaking deep into me, for we are on the scrap-heap now, utterly and entirely, perhaps for the first time in our life. And I do think it is much easier to enjoy in prospect than in reality. 'Let my good name go hang, if only Christ be glorified.' Yes, that's it.    Aren't you glad that we need never stop loving? We may be disappointed, but love can go on....

(Excerpt from 'Candles in the dark'.)

*I realize that I have been sharing quite a bit from Amy Carmichael lately, either on this blog or on Facebook. I hope the things that the Lord has been using, along with His Word, to encourage me in this current season of my life (and my family's), are also encouraging to you.  

My Garden To Date

I am much more encouraged about my garden this year than lasts. I believe I only harvested corn and cherry tomatoes last year. But, it was my first and it gave me something to do.

This year, however, looks like I'll be getting a better harvest. I'm trying to do everything as organically as possible, but I did end up having to pick up a couple of tomato plants from the store because of bad seed. And then I was blessed with a few more plants from a friend at church :) They are not super tall yet, but getting there!

Beef Steak

(Honestly, I'm not really sure why I am dedicating a whole post to plants. I guess it's the gardener thing to do. I wouldn't blame you if you stopped reading right here :) ) 

These are green bell peppers...or at least I hope they will be someday. Feels like they are taking forever to grow! I believe our soil may have a lack of magnesium, so last month I ended up watering them with an Epsom salt mixture. It seems to be helping! The leaves went from yellowish brown to bright green and they are growing taller.

Of course the sun makes them still look yellow.

Just picked these cucumbers this morning! They are the very first I have ever grown and they taste delicious. Yay!

I think the part of my garden that I am the most "excited" about are the pumpkins. I am really hoping to make homemade pumpkin pies this Fall! 

Blossoms

Baby pumpkin about the size of a baseball.
Kind of looks like a watermelon right now.

There are three pumpkin vines growing. There were four,  until...ahem...Jeremiah decided to pull one out. But we won't talk about that...ahem. 

Seriously, could YOU stay upset with this face???

Here's my sweet corn. I always enjoy watching the stalks grow. I think it's because their growth is so noticeable from day to day.

And last, but not least, is my fennel plant. It was given to me by the same friend who gave me the tomatoes. So happy to have some variety in the garden! 

Have a great day!

Megan